:: STRIKE & TOUGH ::

The recent events of my life made me decide that I should be happy and excited on the small things around me. Even if it's just temporary. Yeah, I know that being happy is a choice but I must admit that I am still hesistant to make that genuinely happy choice just yet. I still want to wallow and cry a little bit more. I believe that I owe it to myself to (still) absorb the last few hurts and pains that will come my way (I can argue on this one so no point on debating on this one). I am taking it one step at a time and one day at a time. An 8months passed and I think that my healing process already started. I believe that the pains and hurts are slowly creeping out of my system BUT the sadness, the loneliness, and the longing are the ones that are enveloping me lately - which is a whole, whole, whole lot terrible and horrible than the hurting. It's a very wicked and nasty state to be in and I don't see any looming expiration date as of the moment.

:( I totally digress.

As I've said a while ago, I've been amusing myself with little things around me. I've been hanging out with my friends who are all kind enough to listen to my-never-ending-love-story but who are also polite enough to stop asking questions or pestering me with details when they feel that I cannot take it anymore. I used to be quite open and shareful on the subject of my lovelife (or the lack thereof) to my closest friends but I guess it is different this time. Some of them were quite surprised that I am so privy about the whole thing. I dunno why. Maybe because I just want to keep it all inside me. Maybe "we" have already talked about it in length and in all angles and it left no room for "analysis". Or maybe...it was just the mature way to handle things. Friends even said that I am taking it quite well since I am NOT whiny, pouty, and self-absorbed compared last year. Haha!

ME. ALL SMILES.

Though Times Never Last, But Though People DO!


Posted by KC on Friday, 09 June 2006 at 12:10 AM - on my Friendster's Blog